Welcome And Tools To Get You Started
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Welcome
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How To Navigate This Course
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Tips For Moving Through This Material
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Protocols For Nervous System Overwhelm
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Quick Access Meditations Playlist
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Before You Start: Why Going Slow IS Going Fast (72:56)
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A Map Of The Territory
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When In Doubt/Overwhelm/Looking For A Specific Answer
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How To Establish A Daily Practice/How To Get The MOST Out Of The School
Part One: Fundamental Concepts - Videos
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Working Through These Videos
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Guided Meditation For FEELING
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There Is Nothing Wrong With You - And Why That Matters
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Why We Resist The Idea Of Not Being Broken
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Guided Meditation For SELF COMPASSION
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Loving The Non-Broken Self
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Why FEELING Is The Key To INTEGRATION (Healing) Part One
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Why FEELING Is The Key To Integration Part Two
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Why What You Think Is “Wrong” With You Is Actually Who You Are
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Guided Meditation For RESISTANCE: Part One
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Why I Live This Life
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My Philosophy: Increasing Integrity To Increase Experience
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Progress Not Perfection: My Philosophy Part Two
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All About The Big Picture: My Philosophy Part Three
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Why The Rejection Was Key To Core Curriculum
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Guided Meditation For RESISTANCE: Part Two:
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Learning From Pain: Part One Of Mastery
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Embracing Emotional Learning: Part Two Of Mastery
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Why What’s Wrong With You Is What’s Right With You
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How I Learned To Find My 'Higher Self' In All The 'Broken' Parts Of Me.
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We Do This Work To Become OURSELVES Not A Version Of Us We Think Is Right/Good/Worthy
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What We Do With This Information
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True Pain/Pleasure VS Consensus Reality Pain/Pleasure
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Trusting The Self You Were Trained To Reject
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What Is ‘Living In Alignment?’
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Why The ONLY Alignment Is Alignment From HERE
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What TRUE Self Love Is All About
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The Difference Between LOVING Your Self Sabotage/Coping Mechanisms and INDULGING Them
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Why Your Coping Mechanisms/Self Sabotage Are MORE ORDERED Than Your Intellect
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Embracing Self Sabotage As A Teacher
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Revisiting The Paradox Of Self Love - You Aren’t Fixing But You Are Going To Change
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How I Applied The Paradox Of Self Love To Evolve Harmful Behavior
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This Work Is About YOU, Not Them, (Yet)
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My Personal Experience With Self Love VS. Loving Others
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Why Loving Our Shame Is The Key To Growth
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Loving Shame To Evolve
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A Deeper Look At PAIN
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It’s Not My Fault, But It’s My Responsibility
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Society Taught You To Be Destructive (It’s Not Your Fault)
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Why You Will Never Shame Yourself Well
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Why Pain And Pleasure Mean You Don’t Need Shame
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Using Self Love/Healing Practices To Stay Stuck
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Our Learning Trauma Hiding Our Feeling State
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The Anxiety/Existential Dread/Fear Of This Awakening
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You Don’t NEED Shame, But You Must LEARN To Live Without It
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You Can Learn From Real Reality, But You Must Feel Safe First
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THIS Is Your Entry Point Into True Reality
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Safety First: Why Self Love IS The Only Answer
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Becoming Aware Of Your FEELING STATE
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Three Step Process For Becoming Aware Of Your Feeling State
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What Am I Making This Mean?
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What Am I Making This Mean? Starting With Finding Clarity
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The Intellect May Have It Far To Simple - Feeling Is The Key To Evolution
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What Am I Making This Mean? Sitting In The Unknown
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What Am I Making This Mean? Following Fear All The Way Through
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What Am I Making This Mean? Honoring The Trauma And What Hurts In Our Lives
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What Am I Making This Mean? Coping - Nervous System - Rejection Trauma - An Overview
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What Am I Making This Mean? Understanding The Process Of Self Sabotage - Nervous System Awareness
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What Am I Making This Mean? How To Love Self Sabotage/Coping Enough To Get Into Your Nervous System
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What Am I Making This Mean? My Personal Experience With Loving My Coping
Part One: Foundational Concepts - Written Work
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Introduction
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ALL Of Your Current Pain Is ROOTED In Childhood Trauma
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The Foundational Tools For Questioning Your Own Perception
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Safety First
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Pain, Pleasure, Shame, Acceptance
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Enter SHAME/Toxic Pain And The Inner Critic
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Developing The Observer Into The Inner Loving Parent
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Connecting With True Guidance Will Not Feel Good At First
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Change Doesn’t Mean You Were Wrong And Bad Before: Why Your Shame And Guilt Make Sense To You But Are Not True
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The TRUE Problem And Why Fitting In Won’t Fix It
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The Shame That Came From Unawareness
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We Are Only Aware Of The Pain We Are Complex Enough To Handle
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The Stories You Have Make Sense For A Reason:
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Why Depending Upon Programs Keeps Us Stuck
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The Truth About Learning Trauma/Learning Trauma Types
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This Make You Believe In ‘Broken’ And Needing To ‘Fix’
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We Were All Traumatized In Different Ways
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Why You Think YOU Are Bad
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YOU Were Right - Your Caregivers Were WRONG
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Our Emotions Are The Key
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We Were SUPPOSED To Have Been Taught About Reality In Childhood
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Now You Must Re-Parent Yourself
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Without Love We Have Only Pattern
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Change Is Going To Be Scary: Make Room For That
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The True Definition Of Trauma: Why You Still Act Like A Child No Matter How Much You Know
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We Can’t 'Un-Traumtize' Ourselves
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HOW To Walk Ourselves Through This?
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The Trauma Of Relationships
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Turning A Trauma Based Relationship Into An Awareness Based One
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Putting The Theory Together
Part Two: Taking This Work Deeper - Videos
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What Am I Making This Mean: Safety Safety Safety
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What Am I Making This Mean: Developing The Witness From The Inner Critic
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Grieving Your Childhood Part One
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Grieving Your Childhood Part Two
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How I Grieved My Childhood: Part One
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How I Grieved My Childhood: Part Two
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Why Validating Your Painful Associations Is KEY To Evolution
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Discovering The Needs Under Your Neuroses
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Why We Get Blocked Part One
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Why We Get Blocked Part Two
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Admitting Your Own Needs And Wants - Why This Is So SCARY
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Displaced Desire Practice
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My Experience With Displaced Desires
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Your Needs Are Something You Have Never Seen Before
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Discovering Your True Needs
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Feeling Your Victim Nature: Why It’s So Important
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Embracing Your Victim Nature
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Anger At Your Caregivers
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Sadness For Yourself
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Why Compassion For Yourself Is Going To Be SO SCARY
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Why ‘It’s Not My Fault” Doesn’t Mean No Power
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What Taking Responsibility REALLY Looks Like
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Why It’s NOT About What’s Happening RIGHT NOW
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If This Work Is Making Your Life Worse
Part Two: Taking This Work Deeper - Written Work
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Introduction
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Getting Worse Before It Gets Better
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Practicing The Tools Before Expecting The Tools To Work
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Noticing Scapegoats, Coping And Self Sabotage From Self Love
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Scapegoats
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Self Sabotage
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Coping Mechanisms
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Identifying Rejected/Lost Parts Of Self
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Noticing Existential Fear/Wired Nervous System
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The Tools: Mental AND Physical - Both Together
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Mental Tool One: If It Hurts It’s Too Simple - And It’s Not Your Fault That It Hurts
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Mental Tool Two: What Am I Making This Mean? Theory And Examples
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Mental Tool Two: What Am I Making This Mean? Step By Step Process
Part Three: Making This Practical - Written + Videos
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Intro
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Moving Into Techniques For Accessing Your Emotional Messages
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When Self Love Triggers Abandonment Wounds (60:04)
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Present Moment Safety Meditation
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Inner Child Recall Meditation
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Inner Child Being Rescued By Another Meditation
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Inner Child Being Rescued By You Meditation
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Loving The Traumatized Inner Parent
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Your Trauma Is Not BASED In Your Current Reality, But It Is Happening In Your Current Reality
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Mental Tool Number Three: A New Relationship With Desire
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True Pain Vs. False Guilt/Shame
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All Of Your Current Problems Are Rooted In Your Trauma
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Being With Feelings And Not Reacting Practice
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Dropping Into FEELING Meditation
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Becoming The Observer Meditation
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Becoming A COMPASSIONATE Observer
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Displaced Desire Mediation: Getting The Message
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Feeling The Future You Meditation
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Feeling The Future You: Phase Two
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Letting The Feeling Move Through Practices
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HOW To Handle Guilt And Shame: Awareness
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HOW To Handle Guilt And Shame: Curiosity
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HOW To Handle Guilt And Shame: Compassion
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Using Your Awareness Against Yourself
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Pure Unconditional Love Meditation
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How To Validate/Express/Explore WITHOUT Acting On Trauma Based Impulses
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Meditation: Giving All Parts Seat At The Table
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Anger At Everything: Feeling The Healing Fire
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The Anger/Hopelessness Spiral: How To Navigate It
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What Processing Anger REALLY Looks Like
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Feeling The Fear And Doing It Anyway
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Reprogramming The Nervous System: Practical Application (64:49)
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The Fatigue Of Self Suppression
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Embracing The PATH: No Destination
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Pause, Curiosity, Neutrality, Like, Love
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Subconsciously Living To Prove Your Caregivers Correct
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Living For Yourself: Building New Foundations
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Bringing Practical Order To Your Life
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Unravelling Codependency
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The 6 Steps To Unravelling Codependency
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Dealing With Needing Them To Know/Understand Your Pain/What They Did To You
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Where This Work Is Taking You: A View Of Adulthood
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Summation
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Final Group Meeting (59:40)
